Always Move in Your Own Version of Forward

There are only a few things that truly mean a lot to me, my family, my puppy, my friends, traveling, and the ability to still drive. Yes, to some that may seem ridiculous but I have given up so much in my life already, so so so much, that I don’t think I should have to give up anything else that makes me happy.

Driving is the last thing that makes me feel completely normal. No one on the outside knows that anything is wrong with me or that I’m in a wheelchair. I am just like everyone else. I feel like myself, I feel free, I can breathe, I’m calm, and I am so happy.

Driving my dream car makes all of the negativity in my life disappear during those moments. Being able to drive to go on trips, or to go to the beach, or to even go to the grocery brings me such joy. It may seem pity to some, but everyone has their own specific passions.

Being in a manual wheelchair gives me the only amount of freedom that I have left, since my legs don’t work. Using my arms is all that takes me places now, they are my new legs, and I refuse to give that up. Yes people may think it will be easier and all of that, but for me its like taking 10 steps backward and I refuse to use a motorized wheelchair after all of the hard work I’ve put in to get this far in my life.

Driving a van has never ever been in my interest, never in a million years would I ever imagine myself owning a van and I still don’t. Yes, again it would be easier, probably, but is it what I want, no. My parents have shown me a different way of life and I don’t plan on ever going down a different route. I enjoy every moment when we used to drive our Hondas around, when I’m with my brother in his car, when we go on trips in our SUV, and when I drive my car; I still have to figure out a way to get in my dads pick up truck. I am use to certain things and even though I’m in a wheelchair, it doesn’t mean that I need to change my standards, I just have to work harder to figure out how to continue having the life I’m used too. I’ve worked hard and struggled more than most people will ever know and I refuse to make any more sacrifices to do the right thing or to make others happy.

Being in a motorized wheelchair will bring me down mentally, physically, and in every other way possible. I know I will not want to be seen in it and it will make me feel like I have given up. I’m not a quitter; there is not a bone in me that will allow me to quit. I may have some sad days and feel like giving up but at the end of the day, I only know about fighting. My mind and spirit has only known to fight and it will continue to do that till the end of time.

I deserve to be happy at this point in my life. Who knows how much time I have left and I don’t want to live the rest of the time being sad or mad if I can prevent it. I will work as hard as I need to, to make my dreams and wishes come true. I won’t settle, I will never settle anymore. I don’t care how hard I have to work, in the end I know that I did everything that I could and I gave it my all. I was given this tough life because I guess I am able to handle the hardship and roughness of it and I will make sure I continue to take the hard path because that is all I know, is to work hard for what I want.